I wonder if there is an actual number to how many times a person is supposed to have drastic 'change' within themselves. Maybe someone should write a book on it so we can all be prepared for those times. It seems that they have plenty of books for kids and teens to explain what is changing, why and when. Altho most of those are too graphic in my opinion for kids & teens.
But what about the person in their 20s - don't they need to be aware of all the dumb mistakes they might make and why? Or the hormones that will be wild (which can lead to the mistakes)? How about the 30 year old whose metabolism decides to pretty much stop and then their hormones change again in a different way..? What about all the other people hitting their 40, 50, 60...etc milestones? Wouldn't it help for them to know what might lie ahead, how to deal with it and why?
Maybe books wouldn't help. Maybe people would laugh and feel as though the person writing them had no clue what they were talking about. In the grand scheme of things we are all different, change at different paces and experience different things in life at different times. Maybe if we all shared the different experiences we have been through it would help?
Saying all that.. brings me to this... I am changing. I will have to say this is the first time in my life that I actually know and feel that I am. Maybe that means I am becoming wiser too? (ha)
How am I changing? That is a great question actually. See.. I don't really know. I think I am just changing into that next phase of my life, whatever that may be. I just have noticed I care about certain things more than I did before. For instance - Ive never been a messy person, but I have been becoming more 'OCD' in my cleaning. I have started to care more about what kind of food I am cooking for my family to eat and where that food comes from. I have started researching and trying to buy more American made. My views and opinions on certain subjects are completely changing. I am concerning myself with learning more about my opinions and why I feel the way I do. The way I view church, religion and serving.
There are so many ways that I see myself being different. Thankfully I don't think any of them are bad. They are just changes for whatever reason. Unfortunately in that it makes me feel like I am back to being a teenager at times where I am not sure what I feel or why I feel that way. The difference now is that I take the time to realize it and find out why and see what I can do to make it better.
Some people may call of this 'growing up'. But I have to disagree. I have been 'grown up' for a long time now. Overall I believe and live the same way. Just dynamics about me are changing. I am 33 turning 34 in just a few short weeks. I guess it is just time for 'change'... whatever that may be.
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